Maybe it's because I'm attempting to plan a 15-year high school reunion that this is the analogy that comes to mind, but what I'm really talking about is the moments that are left for our family of three to be a family of three. I could not be more excited to become a family of four, about the unknowns, the adventures ahead, the relationships that will blossom within our family, between our children, the bonds that will form. Heck, I'm even excited for the fights and the chaos that will ensue at times. But, it's bittersweet too. It's been a hell of a two point four years as a family of three. We've had such a blast and could not be more in love with each other. I look back with so much joy at all of it: the good, the bad, and the ugly, though most of it, like 99.9%, has just been amazing.
I feel like it's the end of August before everyone left for their different post-high school destinations. Every night in a parking lot we'd gather to wish someone else well on their journey, give hugs, contact information, last notes and letters reminding each other of all the memories we shared. For the last couple of weeks, and even more in the last couple of days, I think as we squeeze into the bathroom for bath time, or sit at the table eating dinner, or play ball for the seventh hour in a row in the living room or at the playground, that this could be the last time, the last time we do it as a family of three, in this way, and well, I know it's going to get even better, but it also makes me a bit verklempt. I'm going to miss this, just like, sometimes, I still miss high school.
You're right, it's bittersweet.
I'm a little ahead of you in the game and when you have the two of them dancing in the kitchen, hugging when you're not looking and reading books to each other... Well, it's a LOT better than checking out Two Steps the night before Thanksgiving.
Enjoy the next few weeks as a family of three! :)
Posted by: Amy | March 30, 2010 at 10:19 PM
I'm crying. Love you baby sis.
Posted by: Cheryl | March 30, 2010 at 11:26 PM
You hit the nail on the head with the way I felt when I was pregnant with you. But when you finally arrived everything just fell into a wonderful place. I can't imagine not having either one of you. Sitting here reading your blog and seeing your sister's comment knowing you both have such wonderful families makes me miss the 4 of us being "us". Dad and I are so proud of both of you and happy to be part of your lives. I love you
Posted by: Mom | April 01, 2010 at 06:47 AM
Damn - you are all making ME cry!
Posted by: Patty | April 01, 2010 at 01:55 PM