Dreamer

I don't consider myself a dreamer. I was at dinner tonight with a friend who considers herself a dreamer. And I would say that in the short time I've known her I agree with that assessment. I think of my husband as somewhat of a dreamer too. I have dreams, nightmares actually, but if we were playing some kind of word association game, I would call myself a planner much more easily than a dreamer.

But, the thing is, I am a dreamer. It's just that I NEED my dreams to come true so I don't allow myself to take the dreams too far without a PLAN. I can't stand disappointment and am easily disappointed, so if I'm going to allow myself to dream, I have to make plans to make the dream come true. This could explain some of the anxiety that leads to the aforementioned nightmares.

Anyways, I'm also a horoscope believer, and lately I've found them to be extra deep and somewhat perplexing, as if the universe has a plan for me and it's my job to sit and wait for it (I think the horoscope people have been talking to Oprah). Here is today's (courtesy of tarot.com via igoogle.com):

Your confusion may reach new heights today before beginning to finally dissipate. Of course, others might not think this is so productive, yet you are smiling because your visionary dreams and soft intuition can show you a healthy way through this extraordinary time. But avoiding the intensity is not a great idea; it's more important that you embrace the changes now, as they can teach you a lot about your true character.

It appears that I'm not only a dreamer, but a visionary too. Oh, the pressure. What should I be intuiting? Which changes should I be embracing? What are they going to teach me about my character? How can I plan for this change? What should I be envisioning and dreaming about? Avoid intensity? I thought you knew me. Here comes the anxiety. Within the hour I will be having a dream where I will be in some kind of hotel-like building where I cannot find the stairs or use the elevator to get to the room I need to get to. People will tell me things like, "oh, you can't get there from here," as if I'm crazy, and there is a chance that there will be a logistical challenge of some kind with HD (in the dream only, I hope) as well. Ah, to be a dreamer.

Comments

[Mrs. G]

Wake up, Karen! Wake up! It's going to be okay - you married a man who never gets lost in hotels. He'll help you.

[Annie]

Or, you can always try the trusty old 8-ball.

AR