The principal thing in this world is to keep one's soul aloft. - Gustave Flaubert
As the #30dayjournal project winds down, and I tire of my own self-reflection, ramblings, nonsense, and despair over none of my enlightened musings going viral, tonight I'll stick to the prompts provided and play it straight. And short. Here we go!
What brings me most alive is…love. No, seriously. Love of my husband, my children, when I get to do good and meaningful work; friends, colleagues, strangers, moments, chocolate, Yankees, music, travel to new and old places, New York, soccer, life. Love of people, experiences, and yes, some things.
I am open to experiencing more… chocolate. Okay, this one is difficult. Discomfort? Uncertainty? Yes, uncertainty. That would be good for me. More uncertainty. Really. I'm going to be open to that. Patience is part of this, yes? I'm in.
The things that weigh me down are…anxiety, fear, control issues, much of what I've written about this month, not eating, sleeping properly or for optimal health, worry. Prediction of future potential catastrophe. Repeated attempts at perfection.
I am willing to consider letting go of…doing laundry? Folding it? Dishes? Okay, fine. I'm going to try to let go of obsessing about...(I keep writing and deleting ideas)...Why is letting go so hard?!?!? Okay, trying to be perect, make the perfect decision every time. Trying to be conscious of when I'm doing that and letting it go. As much as I can.
My soul soars whenever…I let it (you know, when all those other things and life fall into place).